Life on the Edge…(Chapter 8)

Of course, we all know the saying, “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me.” I’m here to tell you that words do hurt, and in many instances, words can pierce your heart like a dagger, crippling your ability to love yourself as well as others.

Many times, our subconscious accepts as truth things that we think rolled off of us like water off a duck’s back. That’s what happened to me. One seemingly insignificant little comment took root inside of me and it affected every aspect of my life. I saw myself exactly the way that my classmate said he saw me: hideously ugly. From that grew the fear of rejection. I closed myself off from certain relationships with people because I was afraid that I might be rejected at some point.

I didn’t smile much in pictures because I was afraid of showing my buck teeth. I had been tormented by my classmates from the early years of my life up until high school because I had crooked teeth. The way that people made fun of me, you’d think that my whole mouth was busted up.

When I graduated high school and got a job, my first goal was to purchase braces and fix my smile. Once that was done, I thought that everything would be great. I certainly began to smile more. However, I still believed the lie.

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